Shall I return to Faith?
Ever since, I was a doubtful soul.. I always did question the existence and the "validity" of a cosmological being.. All the more after several months in UP where I can and will ever be allowed to express my self freely.. I denounced Catholicism finally.. However, I still believe in a God, a creator, not a propagator of morality and religion.. Morality and religion was created by man, and never by God.. That is what I believe in, if you’re uncomfortable with my thoughts, just be uncomfortable.. Never, I plead, condemn me for this for I will never condemn you for what you believe in..
I am not bad.. Take note.. I hope you’re not one of those narrow-minded people who think that the basis of one’s "goodness and evilness" are his religous beliefs…
My thoughts now are drifting and I am once again in doubt.. I am aimless and wandering and lost… I feel forever empty and never will my friends’ consolation appease me.. I don’t know why, is this because of my outright decision?.. I know that I am, like Newton said, a boy walking in the shores. Never will I ever comprehend the whole mystery of the beach or the ocean… But deep inside, I am sure of what I believe in.. I don’t know if this is my superego haunting me, that I will never be accepted by the eyes of the society or if this is God.. Knocking at me.. Asking me to trust and believe… Again..
