Smiles..
A smile is most beautiful if seldom given. And it feels good, very good, to give this smile..
I felt bad yesterday. It’s no new thing. Another random and spontaneous feeling of sadness and loneliness. It is normal. At least it is normal for me. But how it feels so good to see something that suddenly made me feel quite better. Like the spontaniety of my gloomy feeling, it bursted out of nowhere.. Out of nothing.. Just soo suddenly..
But damn, nothing just seems to stick around long enough. They just stay for a time long enough for me to fall down after their ceremoniously sudden departure..
That is a pattern I’m cautiously aware of. But like commiting a sin, the full regret comes after the bliss.
If I’m regretting and feeling bliss now at my current state– God, take it easy on me!
I only have two hands and a heart, I couldn’t carry more!.. If I am to be punished becuase of my impetuousities, I’ll take it all.
But on human pace.
I saw a flicker in the dark just some time ago. I hope to see the light soon…
Be with me..
Altashheth™
