God’s Vagabond Child..

April 28, 2008

2:29 PM

Yesterday, I regained my martyr-ish mentality.. The thought that, I must endure this because i’m the more sane of the two of us.. Is that right? I think so.. I don’t think so.. I’m not really sure.. But,  fighting fire with fire may just create a bigger and unquencheable fire.. So, I believe that it is up to me to remain psychologically sound and find a way.. I must throw away these depressing thoughts and stuff..

I’ll try.. Because I don’t want to end up doing this thing to my son too..

As for my mom, she’s sound. I just have to accept the mom that I have.. Its not that, I didn’t in the past.. but, I will accept her more and open my mind a little wider for her.. 

I love them both and I hope to fulfill my Purpose to both of them before I die.. I really believe that everything has a reason.. A reason why I wrote this, why you read it.. Why you are going to hate or like what i’m scribbling in this light and static screen.. 

ALTASHHETH™

2:35 PM