God’s Vagabond Child..

11:24PM

January 15, 2008

A good friend and I had this very ‘unloading’ conversation last time. Sitting in the grass near the Acacia trees inside our university campus. It was a bit nostalgic, saying those things. Since I remembered that the only other person that I’ve had the same conversation with was gone from me for almost three years now. I spoke of what I ‘really’ believe in, that other people, bound by social constraints, can never actually think about or won’t bother thinking about. You can never force anyone to listen to you. They might hear what you are blabbering about but few will be able to listen and understand what you want to convey and where you are getting all these thoughts - from your heart or from somewhere else. Sincerity is a commodity that isn’t that very common these days anymore. It will be very lucky if someone gives it to you out of nowhere. It will be a folly to waste it. Because almost everytime, you have to risk and invest sincerity and hope that it won’t be thrown away. But the person actually listened to me and believed what I said. However, I know that I myself, am bound. If I weren’t, i would have filled this blog with every argument that i have.

The conversation left me feeling happy and light for almost an hour. Almost. I’ve come to realize once more, that it was damn possible that the person whom i confided with will end up the same way with the other one - listen and go. I thought that, I hope, other people, who thinks the same way like I do or will be thinking the same way, will find the courage that I don’t have, and will probably never have and stand up for his/her beliefs.

I will have to suffer that ‘cycle’ that I’ve been mentioning in this God-forsaken internet cranny all over again.Or start writing all over again.

Altashheth™

11:39PM

January 15, 2009