God’s Vagabond Child..

2:21 AM

June, 6, 2009

It’s actually my first time to sneak out of the house early this morning just to play computer games (and write a blogpost, of course). But it’s ok, what I do at home during this hour is watch boring TV shows or stare at my room’s walls and ceiling. I simply can’t sleep until between 4 and 5 in the moring.  Don’t ask me why, ‘coz I don’t know.

Anyway, this is my second to the last night here in Bacolod City (or 3rd, it depends on my neural processes) and I’ve come to realize a lot of things..

First, I can be confused by proximity - badly confused - and I only found out about this just today. Second, I actually am born to be alone because I never trust anyone. Third, I can be waaayyy better when I don’t feel any attachment to anyone. Bitter? Hahaha.. No, I’m not. It’s the truth. However, I, with all the philosophical crap that is stuck in my head, can’t help but disregard these three points.

“I know what I can’t stand”, to quote a song by Linkin Park but I am an ‘endurist’ (I just know) and persistent (as my wise highschool teacher told me) by nature.  And maybe, I just do it because I simply want it. Not that I need it, I want it, just to stress it out. I know this may sound mean but I don’t do it for fun. I usually have noble reasons and pristine intentions when doing so. The point is, it’s like a cellphone hanging-thingy - I can still text without it.

With these realizations though, I hope to function better this semester.

ALTASHHETH™

2:51AM